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Monday, September 24, 2007

10:34 AM

i realised that my world is seriously falling apart.i have no social life and i hardly ever have time for myself.my supposed "me" time no longer comprise of just sitting down there staring at puddles on the streets but just the occasional smoke breaks.what's wrong?just what exactly's wrong.i have always been trying to attain that perfect balance in my life but to no avail.yet i always try to convince myself that my life is perfect.talk about living in denial.looking back i noticed that i have done loads of shameless stupid things that i just totally despise myself thinking of it.what could have possibly went wrong and what was i thinking then.was i actually in the right frame of mind?am i actually in the right frame of mine right now?lately i just seem to be really not in touch with the world.in fact i think im drifting away from it day by day.funny how i used to think that my friends have changed.could it all along just have been me and not them.i really wonder now.im starting to get really paranoid about the things around me.the rumours the gossips and all.funny how just a simple slip can rule out to such events.sigh.talk about the things which can possibly happen when your drunk.owells so long that i know that they are so not true.or so i really hope.sometimes i really feel like just throwing in the towel and to just break now and cry.everything is crumbling,the walls are closing in.sometimes i just want to cry out loud for help but nothing comes out.but no i am strong and no one is ever going to see me in such a state.not now.not ever.hopefully.i know i can sustain.geesh.i really think ineed to strive to attain that perfect balance.if that can actually happen.maybe with such i can actually be happier.i can actually walk around with a genuine smile and not one that is plastered on my face.yes i know.how superficial i am indeed.perfect.there's no such thing as perfect.if there's no such thing why actually create that unattainable word.funny how easy one can say it though its so hard to reach.dont you just think the world is just simply so ironic.indeed indeed.

where o where has my life gone to?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, September 17, 2007

10:32 AM

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cuz there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.

There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cuz I need you to guide me to safety.

No, I don't want to wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

No, I don't want to wait forever

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, September 15, 2007

3:01 AM

this week was fun.yes i totally think this week was fun.finally something productive.chalet on monday was not too bad.though it was more like one big happy smoke machine.heh.met up with alot of people which was good.not to mention wild oats last night.damn i love that place already.ok though i admit that i still have this vendetta against this certain woman.owells.blogging is tired to yesterday in pictures.though i look drunk in practically EVERY single one.

wild oats fun.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, September 07, 2007

9:13 AM

booo one thing about holidays which makes me get really pissy is that i just usually get really bored when i have nothing to do.like right now my life is made up of being online for abour 10hours every single day.talk about not having much of a life.owells.shit im boring.geeez at least thankfully all will change next week.or so i hope.monday council chalet.boy i so hope that will be fun.well such will only be fun is everyone get omfhell high and drunk.HAHAHA.owells.i am suddenly completely hooked onto monopoly.hell i so wonder why.come to think of it this is just highly abnormal.owells.had our first council meeting on monday.jessica is in programmes with mel,suzanne and cheryl.talk about love.crap i think i am officially hooked onto facebook as of today.who wants to play monopoly with me?!yay (:

bridge + shisha = happy (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, September 02, 2007

9:37 AM

woohoo caught burn the floor: floorplay today.talk about awesome.yeapp the show has somehow inspired me to learn dancing.i would if i do not have my two left feet.HAHAHA.owells yes i would recommend everyone to watch it but unfortunately the last day is in fact today.owells.last night's house pool party was fun.i cant believe they knew it was my birthday.must be jac.HAHAHA.right?heh.anyway vann's back in singapore.jessica is a happy person.drama exam in 2days time.i am starting to freak out now.gosh PLEASE so let me do well miss pear.damn i so do not like the examiner's name.heh

i love my bitches

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, September 01, 2007

12:40 AM

yay.finally my birthday talk about happiness.alright talk about parties galore after the exams and yes i really do deserve them.heh.thurday was sean's party.vodka madness.everyone was high.yes check out jon and you'll get the picture.o and cheryl so could not walk in a straight line even though she insisted that she could.HAHA.i swear i so love dhini's drinking game.now that was fun fun fun.ok i cant quite recall what really happened except that jon got kicked in the balls and we were in the room having 5-somes on 2single beds.and seriously we were just asleep.kinda.honest.yesterday was a night out with my lovely ladies.talk about AWESOME babyy.havent seen them in like AGES.holland then off to forbidden city.yet another day of great food,alcohol and plenty of cam-whoring.i like.as for today.oosh with my parents later then it's off for a pool party at caldecott close.woohoo.theme- great singapore's dessert.i so do not know what to wear owells.golf was fun just now.except for the fact that ive plenty of blisters now.tomorrow's FLOORPLAY.yay and monday's drinking with my classmates.damn i so love life after exams.heh

thanks sweeties (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;